My Mom and Dad just left after being here for a month. 🙁 I totally bawled like a baby as they were leaving. I’m going to miss them soooo much. Getting to spend time like that with your parents is incredibly rare and special. Their love, support and caring was indispensable and absolutely integral to my healing. I’m blessed beyond measure.
I’m 4 weeks out from surgery and happy to report I’m starting to feel human again. I’m still moving slowly and have hypersensitivity and numbness in numerous places (my breasts, arm and abdomen) but I’m mobile, off meds and able to do for myself for the most part. I try not to lift anything over 5 pounds, and I can’t reach anything on the top shelf yet.. but I can wash my hair, drive and go for mile long walks and short shopping trips. I’m totally knackered by 9pm and in bed. I’ve been able to get more sleep at night.. clocking 8 hours last night! Starting to feel like my old self. Not all the way there yet, but I can see such a tremendous difference in a short time. It’s mind-blowing how the body heals.
I met with my oncologist last week for the first time. He prescribed Tamoxifen (a hormone therapy that blocks estrogen in the body). I start that on December 1st. He also prescribed Lupron shots monthly. I won’t start that until January 1st. Lupron stops the ovaries from functioning, and thus stops estrogen production in the body. I will immediately enter menopause. I’m not gonna lie. I’m nervous about it, but I had estrogen positive cancer. Since I had a lymph node that tested positive for cancer, it means rogue cells *could* have gotten out into my body. Cancer could come back in the liver, lungs or bones. It’s unlikely, but the best insurance policy against recurrence is to cut the estrogen in my body to zero. I’m 48 years old and was probably close to menopause in the next couple of years anyway. I’m thrilled that my oncologist is willing to let me take Tamoxifen alone for a month to see how it affects me.. and then add the Lupron in January. That way, if I have any adverse effects from the Tamoxifen, I can report that and know it’s different from the onslaught of menopause. If I really have a fit going into menopause after the Lupron shots, we can stop the monthly injections and rethink. I feel like it’s a good plan I’m comfortable with.
I have an appointment with the physical therapist on December 17th. That’s the 6 week mark from surgery. I can honestly say that is the ONLY appointment I’m really looking forward to. I can’t wait to get started on getting back to exercise, mobility and seeing how much of the pain and numbness I can get rid of. The PT said it would be a “low and slow” return to exercise, but that I could expect to return to my life I knew before the cancer diagnosis. I’m hanging on to that quote fiercely.
In the mean time, I’m back to work. Being home alone was good for concentration. I got a lot accomplished. It feels really good to be back in the real world. Talking to customers, facility owners and my business partner!
I posted lots of pictures on Facebook in the last week, and I wanted to make sure to share them here. I’ll keep posting if there’s news to report. Overall, I’m one lucky girl. I’m counting my blessings and continue to be thankful for all the love and support shown to me and my family during this scary time. Thank you!